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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 07:25

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I waited trembling.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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When she asked me how she looked .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He resisted the act ,that day.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

What would you do if you found out that someone had broken into your home while you were sleeping?

Ive learnt so much.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why The Simpsons stopped producing Maude Flanders episodes?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why is my ex mad I moved on when he dumped me?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

When do you feel most peaceful ever?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She wouldn,t have been !

I said to her

How do you confront your own family for not inviting you or leaving you out of things?

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She married twice! .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He knew the spot.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was in good health!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Would this be the day?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I will be 64.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was very sick at this time too.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

So, i spoilt her more .

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was seconnd youngest,

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

But it wasn’t much.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is soul school!.

My life is so biszare .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I was 9 years of age.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

What did i know ?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im still living with it.

I don,t even have a pension.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Put me off passion for life!!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She loved him until the end.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As i do to all so called friends.?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Comes on , in middle age.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

It was going to be , some day.

All the time i was locked up.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

So whats the point in blame.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She found it foreign!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We were not on the streets..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I have no regrets .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My family never makes their pension either.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I write beautiful poetry .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But, we were locked up after school.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I think the readers, may guess!

One cannot live in the past .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I couldn’t, believe it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Why did i forgive my father ?

And i lived it daily.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We all went to grammer schools

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I was scared of men, in general

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!